So it's a normal day on my extraordinary world... I saw this article lying around in my FB timeline.. The title got me and so the reading begins...
I think, it never truly justified or defined the title. Who can better know than someone who's loving someone who doesn't know of her existence? Tragic. Right? I don't know how exactly, but I find myself trying to justify my feelings... At my age, people around me wonder why I wasn't with anyone. Some think that I belong to the third classification of gender, some might be thinking that I'm so choosy and others might be concluding that I'm not good enough for someone... In this world that being judged without knowing better is a part of life, I don't think explaining myself is necessary. As for me? I don't answer their questions, die of curiosity for all I care!
I don't have anything against people who belong to the third gender; in fact, I love gay people! They're the most underestimated people in this society and people who are against them? For me they're the most miserable kind of people.
As for being choosy... Yeah maybe. I just know what I want, or who I want rather. Settling for something or someone lesser than what I deserve is not my thing. I know, so much standard. I don't know maybe if I felt like I'm running out of time, I might as well settle down with whoever comes close.. As for now... I'll do my waiting.
I'm not good enough for someone huh? Guess what? I think so too! HAHA. I don't know... I just... Feel like it. I don't know how to act as a "girlfriend" to a guy... I don't know how to treat a guy as "boyfriend". I'm a child in a lady's body. I have tantrums (lots of it), I can be a pain in one's butt and I love pushing people away. Now tell me, who will want me as his girlfriend? I love my independence and I don't think I'm willing to give someone the power to jeopardize that.
Tho there is this one guy who, I hope, can encompass my imperfection... The one guy whom I can "compromise" a lot of things with. I don't know how to explain it... I just feel like I'm reserved for him and him alone.
And you can all say "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU NUTS?" in my face over and over again.. But I'll only settle with my Dan.
That's the tragedy. I don't even know if we'll ever meet in this life time... I'm not even sure if he'll feel the same way... Well, nothing's sure about the future... But I'm on my quest of finding true love and so as long as I have the time... I'll try hard to find it with him. Even if it hurts at times... I'll never give up my dream of meeting him and finding true love in him.
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