WOAH.

Why hello my dear blog!

Its been quite a while huh?.. Well, I figured I have to make a new post right.. Basically because I want to. 

Anyways, I don't have anything in mind to blog about right now... Okaaaay. Maybe there is; but... I don't wanna post it here or anywhere for that matter.

Blah. This is waaaay too pointless... I was browsing my Notes on my phone.. There's too much scratch.. Haha! I wanna post them here.. Then again, I don't, so I won't. 

Nah.. I'm just a paradox gal that you'll either love to hate or hate to love .x

i Just have To

Why do you have the power to hurt me?.. I don’t get it.. Why do I even love you?.. I don’t even know you personally.. Heck. I spent more than half of my life loving you. This is absurd… I don’t want to feel it but I feel it.  Do you know how hard this is?.. No, of course you don’t know. There will be no way for you to know.. You’re barely aware of my existence… And that makes this whole damn thing as pointless as it is! But this is my life, my feelings… I refuse to accept that it’s pointless, or worthless, or nonsensical.