Sometimes, You Have to Go Back to Your Roots

Isn't it good when you have someone to go back to and make you feel grounded and secured?.. Like, you can go fly and explore the world, get bruised and hurt, have your wings damaged and once you're down, you'll just turn and call back on that someone, then you'll get the boost that you need.

Let's just say that he wasn't the one I expected to be there and hear my petty sentiments... But presto! One single call and he was there. Scolded me a bit for being the brat that I am but listened to me nonetheless.

I just love my best friend so much right now! ^_^

Who Actually Likes Monday???

Definitely not me! D'you know someone?? Tell me.. I need to meet them and befriend  them so that they can shred me some good vibes on this day...

Ugh. This day is always supposed to be a non-working day.

YEAH, yeah... Enough about it. It's jut too depressing... </3

I miss my grams and I feel like everyone is against me.. I dunno, just one of my "ME things". and I got a work to do! Ciao!

Daniel Radcliffe's Recent Photoshoot Gives Me Chills and a Lot of Other Feelings

Yes love, I still think of you; but every time I do, I'm frightened... You're just too far away.

I love you. I don't know why, I just do.

I love you, with every inch of fiber in my being.

Don't ask why... I just do.

Can you not?..

It's funny how some people think they can walk in and out of your life so casually.

Like, excuse me!?.. First of, my life is not a convenience store where you can come and go as you please 24/7, with or without taking/getting what you need. Second, my life's not a pad where you can take comfort at night but leave out the next morning. This list can go endless... And I'm quite tired. I don't even know if this is worth writing.. But I need to let that out.

Dear No One by Tori Kelly

You know how it is when you found/heard a song that hits you to the core of your being?.. It's just so amazing. Now, I wouldn't call it my favourite; but it is one of the many... I don't know, I don't have a favourite song... I just can't choose among the choices! Haha. So anyways here it goes.. Look at the lyrics and listen on YouTube (click the link below)!

Ooookay..? Let's get into the lyrics:

"Dear No One"

I like being independent

Not so much of an investment

No one to tell me what to do

I like being by myself

Don't gotta entertain anybody else

No one to answer to...

Practically, me af! Actually, the whole song! Why do I have to shred it per stanza?.. I swear, the whole song is so freaking me (ღ˘⌣˘ღ) ♫･*:.｡. .｡.:*･

But sometimes, I just want somebody to hold

Someone to give me their jacket when it's cold

Got that young love even when we're old

Yeah sometimes, I want someone to grab my hand

Pick me up, pull me close, be my man

I will love you till the end

Yep. Sometimes. And nope; I don't hate being single... I love everything that comes with it, but yeah there are times when I longed for someone to love me as much as I do him... That one guy whom I can feel security, affection and all those mushy feelings.

So if you're out there I swear to be good to you

But I'm done lookin', for my future someone

Cause when the time is right

You'll be here, but for now

Dear no one, this is your love song

Ooo-OhOh

Well, I can't promise to be good. I'll mess up. I always do, so that someone should have a lot of patience and love for me... Right now, I don't really want to deal with complications brought by relationships, maybe I'll be too preoccupied or what not; but when the right time comes... I wanna be the best girlfriend this world has ever seen, maybe when that time comes, I will be willing to compromise everything for my future someone. 

I don't really like big crowds

I tend to shut people out

I like my space, yeah

But I'd love to have a soulmate

And God'll give him to me someday

And I know it'll be worth the wait, oh

Again, this verse is so me! Need I say more?.. I always say that God is busy writing my perfect love story, I know He knows that I'm not yet ready for this perfection. One day, someday, soon.. In His time, 

So if your out there I swear to be good to you

But I'm done lookin' (But I'm done lookin'), for my future someone

Cause when the time is right

You'll be here, but for now

Dear no one (Dear nobody) this is your love song (Ooo-Oooh)

Sometimes, I just want somebody to hold

Someone to give me their jacket when it's cold

Got that young love even when we're old

Yeah sometimes, I want someone to grab my hand

Pick me up, pull me close, be my man

I will love you till the end

So if you're out there I swear to be good to you

But I'm done lookin' (I'm done lookin'), for my future someone (Ooo-Yeah)

Cause when the time is right

You'll be here, but for now

Dear no one (Dear Nobody) this is your love song (This is your love song)

Dear no one, no need to be searchin', no

Dear no one...

Dear no one...

Dear No one, this is your love song.

Tori Kelly - Dear No One (Official Video) - YouTube

Gaah! I just love this song! I could've been the one who penned it!

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☀ Dear No One, ☀☀
♫ ..•* ☀¨`*•♫.•´*.¸☀.•´♥
┊ ┊┊ ┊☀┊ ┊ ┊┊ ☀ه
ه┊ ☀ ┊ ┊ ི♥ྀ
☀ ┊┊ ☀ه
ه┊

I'm Writing Again :)

Writing has always been my escape... I just love the connection of my thoughts to my pen and my paper/my computer screen and keyboard/my iPhone's notepad. It has always been a passion. There used to be a time when I'll just sit on m'bed for hours and write... And I've always liked the byproduct; but I've lost that passion, that connection that I used to have.

Sometimes, I will find myself zoning out with ideas that needed to be written and when I tried to pen it, it's gone. There's nothing to blame really... One day, I just decided to stop. See, the main purpose of writing for me is to jolt down every happy memories that I will love to remember at some point; and then recently, I felt like my life's getting down and I just can't bear to write the sadness inside me... It started when my Lolo died... It was painful, and I just can't seem to write it all out.. Even now as I think about it, it messes me up.

But I have to let it all out... Like how do you actually write something that you don't want to remember but cannot seem to forget? And that same thing that you know you have to remember but hurts you deep inside. It's maddening, it's insane.

I don't even know if it make sense... But sometimes, that's the point. It doesn't have to make sense.

I'm finding my way back. It's about to get better than ever! .x

Some Random Rant

I do not understand why people talk about things that they do not know one thing about. Is your life that boring?!.. My mantra has always been: "if you do not have anything nice to say, then just shut your big mouth up"; Problem with people? They are too opinionated sometimes and they all wanted to be heard... Which is OK at some point; but maddening most of the time. Then they'll complain that life is complicated... Well newsflash hun: Life is not complicated; people are.

Well, that's some random rant I feel like posting on FB the other day but decided not to. Don't ask me why... I dunno either. ^_^v

First Thought on the First Day of a New Month

Well, this is some wicked thing.. I dunno though. I just wanted to do this. :)

You always come into my mind uninvited.

 All of these years...

You've always been welcome;

But unlike all of those times, recently I found myself trying to pull you out.

You're just too far away; and I'm getting scared…

What if I can't reach you?

It's getting so hard; 

And I'm losing all the means to get to you.

Why do you have to be so far away?

Nasty! It's been a while. A long while since my mind produced some words worthy of mixing up to make some poems.. Well that is if,,,? You could call it that .x