I was born Catholic, I grew up as a Catholic. Many times, I've let my religion define me... But as I think about it now... People cannot be define solely of what they're supposed to believed in. I'm a sinner, but that doesn't mean I'm a bad person. I just hate those Catholics who acts as if they're not sinners and they're the only ones who's gonna be saved by the love of God.
I grew up knowing that my God, is a loving God. He can be angry, yes... But he forgives and He loves me... Then came the abusive minx part of me... It's getting harder for me to talk to Him... I'm embarrassed of my sins and sometimes I feel like I'm not supposed to be forgiven.. I do not deserve His love. It's hard to say you're sorry for the things you did when you know deep down in your heart... That you'll do it over again. I'm afraid that one day I'll wake up, and He has stopped loving me... Or worst, that one day... I may not wake up anymore.
