Breakdown

It's freaking annoying when the moment you've been dreading for came by on the most unexpected time and place. You'll feel helpless, alone and well.. Sad.

I've experienced this a week ago.. And I can't seem to find my heart to write. I was busy mourning over some nonsensical issue at that moment... And my eyes, being the loyal orbs they are wanted to be one with my heart that time that when I started to type the first sentence of this post, they get all teary and before it overflows, I decided to stop.

I have never felt that kind of sadness... Its like it consumed my whole being. It's different from the sadness that we feel when we lost a loved one to death, or frustration sadness, or any other sadness for that matter. It was a sadness that made me question my dreams, the sadness that slapped me back to reality, the sadness that pierced my whole being. It was a very different kind of sadness. And you know what's worse about that freaking sadness? I can't share it to anyone. And I mean literally ANYONE. It's a heart-wrenching, brain-wrecking kind of sadness.

As I was continuing this post, I figure I wanted to put it all here.. But then again, I changed my mind. :) Right now I'm good... The same reason of sadness made me happy after a few days. It's crazy really. :P